// A Daughter…omg.//
So we finally KNOW. It’s a girl….a GIRL!
oh.man. My reaction? Absolute excitement followed by sheer terror. Not because of how she could be (cause she’ll be a perfect angel, RIGHT), but because I know the challenge will be on me. A mother to a daughter.
Don’t get me wrong, boys have lots of challenges all their own, but being a girl myself, I know! I know what lies ahead for me and little miss Too-too. With a boy at least I’d go in somewhat naive. But, I know about first periods, training bras, mean girls, body issues, fitting in, first loves, heart breaks, the hormones and so on.
I was incredibly sensitive, empathetic, a bit (a LITTLE bit) dramatic, creative, wild, witty (mom, read that as smart-ass), curious, and caring girl. I know I was a challenge for my mom. We had a lot of cries. But she was always there, listened, and is now one of my best friends in life.
I’m 29 and I feel like I’ve only JUST gotten to a place where I own who I am, I occupy my space, and I accept my life, abilities, body, and quirks exactly as they are. And I know raising a daughter will make me question every thing I thought I knew about myself.
Will I be there for her how she needs? Will she be kind? Will she be adventurous? Will she be a mean girl or subject to them? What challenges and limitations will she face? Will I accidentally crush her spirit? Will I be able to build her back up again? Will I help her learn to fly on her own? Will she like me? Will she sing 80s power ballads in the car with me? Or will I just embarrass her most of the time? Will I know what to say when she’s hurt? Will I know what to say when she hurts me? Will I ever be able to protect her? Will she like sports? What if she’s into ballerinas and not fishing? Will she be an sytycd dance prodigy? ;)
What I do know…
- she has a dad who is perfect for loving a little girl. he already loves her fiercely. she has his heart.
- we will love her always with all we have
- she will be surrounded by strong, humble, confident, funny women in her aunt, grandmas, and friends
photo credit: 1. my iphone 2 and 3. www.tonhyakaeblog.com